“I have been having issues with stress and anxiety and lost motor control in my legs one day, so my doctor ran some blood work tests on me. They found out I have mild hyperthyroidism so I got referred to an endocrinologist. She’s run a bunch of other tests on me and she already found 4 hormonal imbalances and we haven’t even tested all of my hormones yet (let alone sex hormones) yet. I’m scared to get these other hormones checked because I don’t know if it will invalidate my asexuality. I will feel like I’ve been living a lie if it turns out I was actually allosexual with a low sex drive. I also got referred to a neurologist because they found a small cyst on my pituitary gland. I hesitate to tell people in my life what I’m going through because I don’t want them to attribute my asexuality to my hormonal imbalances. But as I run more tests and see more doctors, I feel scared, helpless and alone. It’s so lonely not being able to share my struggles with my loved ones. I want to get better, but I just don’t want to lose that part of my identity. Thanks for letting me vent. It’s just a very hard time for me.”