From the inbox #999

“I have been having issues with stress and anxiety and lost motor control in my legs one day, so my doctor ran some blood work tests on me. They found out I have mild hyperthyroidism so I got referred to an endocrinologist. She’s run a bunch of other tests on me and she already found 4 hormonal imbalances and we haven’t even tested all of my hormones yet (let alone sex hormones) yet. I’m scared to get these other hormones checked because I don’t know if it will invalidate my asexuality. I will feel like I’ve been living a lie if it turns out I was actually allosexual with a low sex drive. I also got referred to a neurologist because they found a small cyst on my pituitary gland. I hesitate to tell people in my life what I’m going through because I don’t want them to attribute my asexuality to my hormonal imbalances. But as I run more tests and see more doctors, I feel scared, helpless and alone. It’s so lonely not being able to share my struggles with my loved ones. I want to get better, but I just don’t want to lose that part of my identity. Thanks for letting me vent. It’s just a very hard time for me.”

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