“I’ve been really trying to figure whether or not I’m asexual or not the past few days. I love the art of sex and I watch quite a lot. I masturbate and I can find people sexually attractive but most of the time I only find them artistically aesthetic. When it comes to actually having sex, no matter how much I love someone, I can end up 100% disgusted with them. Even myself. I wasn’t raised to hate sex or adultery but sometimes it just feels so wrong and… disgusting. Even when I’m alone. Would you be able to shed some light on these feelings?
And I watch porn quite a lot***
I also loathe the idea of being touched at all most of the time but very rarely, I crave physical contact.”