“To the community, I used to identify as a gay man. But never enjoyed sex or really any affection. I just didn’t like girls and thought boys looked nice (although I never felt any really big attraction or “love”), obviously I must be gay. Took me a long time to realize this wasn’t normal and to come to terms with my ace-ness. Now I used to live with a few friends, and I started to feel actual emotions for one of them. He’s straight so I never acted on these feelings because I respected him and valued the friendship, but it kept (is still) getting worse. He’s the only person that I’ve ever felt this way about and I don’t know how to deal with it because since moving out, we barely talk. I need advice and help on how to, I guess, “get over” him. Because I hate feeling this, but I’m also scared I may never get to feel that again, and it makes me feel incredibly broken. I’ve tried bringing it up with another friend, but all I got was an “ew” and I fake laughed it off. So I don’t have anyone to get any kind of advice from. please help.
TL DR: how do I stop feeling so fucked up?”