“First, I’m 30 and I’m a Virgin, and I’ve only kissed maybe three people total, and I’ve only kissed each person only once. I don’t enjoy kissing, it freaks me out, and scares me enough that I dont’ even like getting into sexual situations. When I’m drunk, I have kissed a person (same sex) and I really enjoyed it, but freaked out over it after.
I find men attractive, and I do often masturbate to the thought of being with a man, or a sex scene I’ve seen before. I sometimes think of woman as well. I’m not sure if I’m ACE, or if I’m something brand new. There are men that I really enjoy hanging out with,, but thinking of being with them sexually, or even just kissing them, makes me super nervous to the point of having anxiety attacks. I can’t flirt out in public without my mind going into super anxiety about someone trying to kiss me.
Is there something wrong with me? Am I ACE? Or something else? I just am tired of being alone, and it seems every man I’ve met never understands my issues and doesn’t want to deal with them. ”