“I know I’m ace, and that’s been hard enough in relationships. But I’m coming to the realization that I don’t really want a romantic partner either – in the past I’ve gone through the motions and all that and it just feels fake and forced. I realize now that I never really (romantically) loved the people that I said I did, I kinda just thought I was supposed to. I felt really out of control (I’m kind of a control freak) and locked in and it was terrifying.
The thing is, while I like being alone and being an individual (as opposed to a part of a unit), I do want love. I don’t want the kind of love that makes me feel smothered though. I don’t know if I’m aro or what, but I feel like there’s no one like this except me. ”