From the inbox #139

“Maybe I might feel love, but not in the way that I should. I love my friends. I love the people in my life. But when it comes to romantic love….even when I have a crush on someone it isn’t the way it should be. It doesn’t come naturally for me to have a crush on someone, it’s like I have to force it. Same for relationships. Like when I am in one yeah I can be a good, even great, girlfriend. But it’s hard for me to feel the way I should. Maybe that type of love just isn’t for me. I mean, people say that in relationships love shouldn’t be something that you have to force. Yeah you can fight and have disagreements but love still comes easy does it not? I feel like I’m longing for something that I can not feel. It’s like, I want to be able to love. I want to be able to not have to force myself to like someone, but I don’t know how to. It just doesn’t come naturally. In the end yeah I can love someone in the relationship way but it’s forced. Maybe in the end that type of love just isn’t for me.”

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